This is the ninth entry from my fieldwork diary. The original date is 03.06.2010.
"Vajrasattva is for the purification of karma. What is karma? When you recite a mantra you are creating good karma. But when, for example, you have a bad attitude towards other people you're creating bad karma. If you keep doing it it'll eventually come back to you. Even just a thought of harming another person will create bad karma. Arguing with family members also creates painful karma for everyone involved. So we create karma every day with our actions and thoughts.
Why do we hurt other people? It is due to a strong ego. We have problems within ourselves so we need to fix these problems. It's best to remain humble, polite and respectful towards other people. We shouldn't pass judgement on how others appear to us and we mustn't choose whom we like according to what they look like. Instead, we should have equal compassion for everyone, regardless of their looks, and we should feel compassion for those who don't appear attractive to others. When we judge someone's appearance we are destroying our goodness.
The opposite of compassion is anger. Anger is poison. It is dangerous for ourselves and others because anger kill.
If you have strong desires and strong attachments you become angry when problems and obstacles arise. We need to replace anger and desire with love and compassion. When we meditate well, our love and compassion opens up and brings us wisdom.
Buddha became more and more compassionate by practicing meditation. He was not interested in power or fame.
Don't say meaningless things and don't gossip. Develop the mind to have a meaningful life."
*Important side note: These diary entries do not reflect every word the teacher said, and there may be some mistakes or misunderstandings, for which I am sorry and accept responsibility. In a few instances, I have interjected my own interpretation or explanation.